i plunge. i throw my body into the water feeling my feet hit first. the cold is instantaneous as it rapidly consumes my legs, my torso, my face. I feel numbed by it, and therefore, i feel good. I open my eyes once i'm under and i see the light still lingering at the surface. I drift farther and farther away until it is nothing but a hazed allusion to the world outside. I let my body sink, and i forget to breathe. but, i tell myself i can last. i tell myself i can reach the ground below the water. i get past all the layers imagining that i can see the varying gradient of blues. but i know it's in my head.

i plunge. i pull the glass up to my face feeling my lips hit first. the warmth is instantaneous as it rapidly goes through my face, my torso, my legs. i feel numbed by it, and therefore i feel good.

i squeeze my eyes shut once i'm under and imagine the light still lingering at the surface. I drift farther and farther until it is nothing but a hazed allusion to the world outside. i let my body sink and i forget to breathe. but, i tell myself that i can last. i get past all the levels imagining that i can see the varying gradient of my blues. but i know it's in my head.

this is a dog?

Alma Branca

someone stole my identity. creepy.

https://secure.bebo.com/Profile.jsp?MemberId=9606244134

my roommates are criminals.

best dream.

fix me.

vanishing acts 2

vanishing acts.

devil (made) 3

glow.

che in a fish tank. kitty cat role-reversal.

blonde et brune romance. taken.

wish me luck.

so i've decided to set up new life goals.

1. i am going to learn korean.. by staying in more often and watching korean dramas.

2. i'm going to miraculously come up with money to go to korea.

3. i'm going to convince clementine to permanently translate for me (once i realized that plan #1 was too unlikely.

4. i'm going to get an asian style make over, and live off of kimchi.

5. i will make connections and become a korean pop sensation.

6. i will use by benefits from that to meet with kim hyun joong, a korean actor and singer who looks like to epitome of all things holy.

7. i will woo him and convince him to marry me.

8. i will live with him and own puppies and only drink soju (the korean-style vodka) 1x a month.

i'll be happy.

done burning bills and letting whiskey coax out the things in me that get me in trouble.

i'll be fine.

break ups, flake ups.